Trusting in God

It's weird or so it feels, to completely trust God to provide for your financial well being. I thought that might be the case when we first got married and it was. Not that big of a deal. Give it a few years of working and everything falls into place. That sort of happened for us, then I decided to switch careers and that flopped. Then I couldn't find a job so I did the temp thing for a while and started working nights at FedEx. Then I was hired as a courier at FedEx. I will be going to school July 5-6 and July 18-29 in Metarie, LA, and Irving, TX. Sarah is working this week with the new private group. That will help a lot. She is slowly building her clients there and will work again in Huntsville when school starts up. She will work during the day and I will afternoon/evening. If you currently put our two checking accounts together I think the accounts combined would be $0.00. That's the scary part for us. It's hard not to be in control or have enough money to buy your kid's small things when they want them or when you want to get them something. It also sucks because I would like to buy Sarah flowers to help take her mind off the situation but it's hard to do that also. It's hard to be content when see other people doing what they want and you can't. If we didn't have kids it wouldn't be as big a deal to me. I realized that I am failing at providing because I can't pay our bills and I might have to ask my parents for money. I don't want to do that but we might have to. I have enough to pay the bills to keep the house going but not enough to pay the mortgage. Please pray for us to make enough money to pay our bills through the summer. When school starts again we should have enough money to pay for everything again.